Laying here.

There we are.

Two people. 

And as I lay there i look into your eyes, they are so vast and say so incredibly much yet they are so silent.
I guess we don´t need to talk even though I would love to.
I guess that would make it all easier, but I´m starting to feel like this isn´t supposed to be easy.
My part of the conversation is a few tears and a smile of melancholy.
I want to be your mountain yet your eyes can make me a pebble.
I want to protect you even though you are the only one capable of destroying me like this.
Truth is I need you.

And I love it and hate it.

I love you so much, and that is what scares me the most, I don´t know why but I can´t help but wonder when you are gonna leave, cause that is what everyone seems to do.
Leave me.

When I say I love you and you don´t say it back it leaves a voice in my head that tells me that I don´t deserve to hear it.

But you can´t leave. 

I need you, there I said it I need you.
I know I´m not supposed to.
Cause love is often mistaken for dependence.
but i need you because I love you.
You are my drug, my flame.
I will always need my next fix so please stay around.